Healing From A Past of Hurt

 

Healing From a Past of Hurt

by Liz King

    The hurt we suffer from childhood can follow us throughout our adult lives.  It has a habit of defining us and crippling us.  We believe the lies we have been told or define our worth on the treatment that we suffered as children.  Even in a life with Christ it has given the enemy strongholds that need to be broken.  I am speaking from experience.  I truly think satan's mission is to destroy us when we are young so we cannot be who God created us to be.  Without the proper guidance it makes it almost impossible to move forward in your faith because you can't get past the lies of the enemy.  

    Even though I have been a believer for a very long time there have been strongholds that have drug me down and hindered me from growing spiritually.  I have now sought biblical counseling to see the things from my past that have disabled me emotionally and spiritually.  God didn't do this to me the enemy did and used humans to hurt me.  It left me in a place feeling like that little girl who felt unloved, a mistake, unworthy, invisible, and rejected.  I know in my head the promises of God are true but there are many times that these lies creep in, and they can hang over you.  Those lies become more believable than the truth of who God says I am.  

    My assignment today was Romans 6.  So now I will try to share what God is showing me as I process this in writing.  Just like Christ who was buried, so was I the moment I professed my belief and faith in Christ.  Everything the enemy said I was, I no longer am.  The moment I accepted Christ, that no longer defines me.  Just like Jesus rose from death, so have I.  The same power that raised him from the dead is now in me.  I am a new creation.  I am a new being. The old me is dead, the old me does not exist anymore.  I am now a redeemed, eternal being with an eternal destiny to fulfill.  Even though I know that , why do I keep looking back and believing the lies rather than the truth?  I guess it's because it's all I've known.  I am commanded to walk in the NEWNESS of life, not in death.  

    I am told to PRESENT MYSELF before God as being ALIVE from the dead.  I am to act and comprehend that before God, I am alive in him and him alone.  There is nothing I can do to make him love me.  He already does! There is nothing I can do to save myself, no matter how hard we try, we can't.  I am under grace, his grace.  It's a gift God has given me.  It is not to be abused or taken lightly.  It is to be believed and accepted.  If I can trust him and surrender my hurt and pain to him, willingly, I can present myself alive before him because I will have spiritual freedom.  Spiritual freedom means I am no longer to be burdened by guilt, pain, inadequacy, or imperfection because I am made perfect in him.  

     If you are in a small boat, surrounded by ocean, and it has too much weight and weight continues to be added, your boat begins to sink. The smart thing to do is throw the weight out of the boat so it won't go under. If you do not get rid of all the weight weighing down, the boat, you will sink.  The boat is us.  the person in the boat is your spirit.  We have to come to agreement to throw the extra weight from the boat.  Many of us are more comfortable and secure in the cocoon of pain we have allowed our past to make around us.  We are so weighed down and comfortable with it we get weighed down and we begin to drown in life.  Only when we can identify the things that our weighing us down can we willingly throw them away making our boat lighter and easier to move towards our destination.  

    Romans 6 talks about we are slaves to that we obey.  I have been willingly choosing to obey the voices that constantly tell me who I am not instead of listening to the voice of God telling me who I am.  I had surrendered to my enslavement to the lies of satan. I am supposed to be alive!!! I can no longer choose to live in oppression and defeat.  I can't present myself before God like that! I have to be obedient to who God says I am.  I was delivered from that form of doctrine the moment I had an obedient heart and turned to God for salvation.   I am the child of the King, not a child of oppression and lies.  The body of sin, the lies, the accusations, were done away with on the cross and I AM NO LONGER A SLAVE TO THAT. I am not a slave to my past or the lies that are attached to my past.   I am a new creation.  I have to renew my mind daily and remember who I am.  I am a child of the King. I have no fruit in the past.  It is dead.  There is nothing That is beneficial for me if I continue to drink the lies of the fruit of my past.  It comes from tainted and contaminated lies created by an enemy who hates me to death.  It does not want me to live in freedom and they don't want me to prosper spiritually.  My God is bigger than those lies I have entertained.  I am now set free and have the fruit of eternal life. I have a life in eternity with the creator of the universe that is more awesome than I could ever fathom, he is more loving and compassionate than I could ever imagine.  If I am honestly willingly seeking him and desiring him, then NOTHING can separate me from his love. I cannot choose to live in the life of my past.  That no longer defines me.  I have been given and eternal, FREE gift that God himself paid for.  All I have to do is believe and accept it.  I have to live in the newness of life.  The moment I accepted Jesus all the lies became null and void.  I am his greatest treasure. He values me.  He loves me unconditionally.  I am FREE.